Mr.Wash Class

I enjoy being in Mr.Washington class, it's a break from all the stressful classes. Although, Wash makes sure we're all on our task with finishing work for other classes. Wash also, makes it his business to be in our business. Wash talk too much too, like he go from topic to topic, story to story, example to example and etc. I'll miss Wash the most, actually a funny ( corny) and cool man.  I look forward to having Wash right after this Ms. Hegeman's class, I be needing to detox.

Here I Am (SSR)

"Why is that you could only see the worst in me?
I swear sometimes I feel like it nurtures me
But to keep it all real, it's kinda hurting me
I could say I’m done with it, but it lurks in me
So I’m a just tell myself that it works for me". 

This verse is from the song "Here I am" by Nicki Minaj, I choose this song and particular verse from this song is because I feel like it's me against the world.  I feel like I take in what people say about me and show them,I'm wearing these words and judgments.  Yes, words do hurt but, I do choose to embrace it I show people who I am and what I have to offer. The person I am, is always going to be me. Hate it or Love it, negative vibes motivate me to do better.

Passion !!!

As promised, I will be talking about the loves of my life! So, my lovely and beautiful niece is one of my passions in my life. I love my niece with all my heart, she means the world to me. I've changed drastically from the person I used to be when I found out that my sister was pregnant with her. My niece is named after me, well she has my middle name. Brianna!! Brianna may not look anything like me , However she acts just like me. Brianna is my little buddy, she absolutely the reason why I try to be better. I don't see Brianna as a niece, I see her as my child.. strangely.. but I love her to pieces and will always be her #1 fan and friend.

My other passion in my life is my boyfriend. I love my boyfriend very much, we've been together for 4 years, 5 in June; on and off. Despite the rumors and accusations people may have about us, that never stopped us. Older people have told me , I'm too young to be in a serious relationship and that'll change when I get to college. However, I knew nothing would stop us. We've been through a lot and passed every obstacle, the love that we have for each other is unconditional. So may think that because of my appearance that I'll never have anyone. There was a time when I never wore my hair out, I wasn't fully developed and was still wearing beads (In the 7th and 8th grade), and he still choose me to be with me. I knew my boyfriend since I was in the 4th grade. My boyfriend; Liyl has seen me at my worst, and looked passed what others said and felt about me. I've never been neglected, cheated on, abused or mistreated by him. For that I appreciate him dearly, and I do attend to marry and start a family with him... Yes, I plan my future ahead , however I'm sure we got this.


#Powerful

I hope this is EXTRA credit! but Welcome 2015

I'm just writing this but Welcome 2O15! I'm more than excited to see how this year will come out. I know there's memes that keep suggesting that this is everyone's year. I think that's motivation to do better and be better. I'm sad but re-leaved that I lost people in 2O14. Some close people passed away in my family but, I'm glad they're not suffering anymore and get to rest peacefully. I've also lost friends, and that is ok. I've learned life moves on with or without people, I hope 2O15 changes life for the better. In 2O15 I'll be 18 and hopefully graduating "Nogood Thurgood" and attending college. I plan on working on myself internally and externally for better. This year, I'll probably handle things alot differently .. More or less, I'll be myself but with a different look on things.

#Maturity (I'm also hash-tagging) !

You title this (FC)

Tahera- Pure, Chaste

Recently I've been feeling like I need to prove myself to others. Originally, I was going to post about the love of my life, I've decided not to. (That'll be another time). Anyways.. I feel like I need to prove myself. I'm not quite sure why all of a sudden I care what people think, I never have. I don't believe I care, I just want people to see a different side of me. There're plenty of people who has never spoken to me since I came to this school.That bothers me...  As of right now I'm trying to prove to Ms.Hegeman that I'm not depressed, which I'm not. Trying to show my mature, intellectual side. 2 years ago, a girl I was friends with, told me I have "a bad Ora", "negative energy". Although, this girl is EXACTLY like me, she's just more CONTROLLING than I am. Ever since then I latched on to be a brighter, exciting and lovable person... Now, that hasn't worked. I shouldn't have to get a round of applause for not getting into any problems, very ignorant.  I have no idea where this is going!!! This is so frustrating. I guess "changing" or "maturing" comes with self want and need. I think that these girls walk around acting like they know everything and they've found themselves. I know , I don't know who I am. I never really wanted to change, I never needed friends, I've always kept a small circle...  I feel as though I don't need people to accept me, However, I am falsely judged on what people think they know about me. I've always heard "Tahera, I've always accused of people this person and didn't like you, Until I really got to know you". To hear that is a breath of fresh air because that is one less person that hates me.

 I don't want this to be a long blog, I'll sum this up soon. I do know one thing, I am a good friend, Girlfriend, Aunt, Sister, Daughter, Cousin, Niece, Granddaughter and person. I may be  mean at times it's  just honesty because I am a nice person. I am Misunderstood, Overlooked, and Underrated.

Tahera is an extraordinary woman who is disposed to excess, and her policy seems to be "all or nothing" much of the time, meaning that her itinerary could take her to the highest peaks as well as towards certain chasms... This influence also nudges her in the direction of others - to the world and to the public. Tahera certainly doesn´t leave people indifferent and could go far with the right support - with the chance to be even more successful if she approaches life with a selfless attitude. She is an unconventional character who doesn´t like to follow the beaten track and knows no limitations.. Tahera is fascinated by elsewhere - be it geographically, intellectually or spiritually. She seeks to surpass herself and break the mould of habit and convention. This can often make her appear enigmatic and others could perceive her as a visionary or a nonconformist, or even an outside.Tahera is drawn to contact with the public, but destiny could present her with the other aspects of the number 9: overseas travel, altruism, humanitarian or philanthropic orientations. It is quite possible that she goes through different stages before achieving a state of perfect detachment, she needs to feel secure in the material realm before she can dedicate herself to others, and Tahera is not indisposed to a little soul searching. She needs to believe in what she does, and it is not inconceivable that she one day achieves a certain notoriety or another form of recognition. Her tendency to daydream, her sensuality and the nature of her ultimate quest, could, if she isn´t able to materialize her aspirations, lead her to artificial paradises. As a child, Tahera can be oversensitive, emotional and unpredictable, and one needs to understand her to be able to love her, although her perception of the truth may seem alien to you and her incredible stories shocking.

http://www.first-names-meanings.com/names/name-TAHERA.html

I forgot the title but it has something to do with classes to talk about...

So, I'm going to talk about my ENGLISH class. As a child growing up;you often hear about how English is the worst class, the class we all need to graduate.The life long rumors are true, not because of the work, but because of the people.

I really hope this doesn't offend anyone, then again I may not care really. My English class is literally "Mean Girls", within 45 minutes each day. The typical self-centered, egoistical people in my class (some) really annoy me. I CANNOT deal with cocky people, teachers OR teacher-assistant especially. Class and school in general is not whose more knowledgeable , but who puts their knowledge to good use. It is very much OK to work with people, and have others look over your work, there is no "levels" to be above. I feel those are very ignorant to the fact people can hear their comments. Yes, I am speaking subliminally, and this is very appropriate. This is my blog and my opinion,also I didn't use profanity. I feel as though that is an improvement in itself.

Furthermore, the work in my English class is annoying. I hate grammar rules, it feels so third grade to me. I get it, as others (teachers and assistants) would say "You guys are Seniors, you're making more grammatical mistakes then my 8th graders". I don't care to hear that truthfully, every child is different, mistakes will be made, that is why it is called proof reading, I do understand I am not the worlds easiest person to talk to or student. I know I have conversations in class, but it's boring, I hate to sit down for 45 minutes to hear a bunch of rambling and empty examples that goes back to the topic at hand.

This by no means is a positive blog, this is a rant. Fahrenheit 451 was a very well written book, however I do not want to do this essay, It's an argumentative essay and I'm over argumentative essays. I am very good at debating and arguing but this particular topic not so much....


BLOOP! 

SSR

So I found this picture on Pinterest but forgot to pin it, I only saved in to my laptop. I can't give you the link or artist but, I could give you my thoughts on it. This picture stood out to me because I feel as though I'm trapped in my own mind, alone and cold. The things I go through mentally is more than what I could handle, and I don't often tell people whats really on my mind in depth.Which often makes me feel alone. My mind never stops, it's always running and stressing. My negative thoughts hold me back from moving forward in life. I am definitely a prisoner in my own mind. I'd like to be free without losing my mind. I'm a free spirit but with a captured mind.