Tahera- Pure, Chaste
Recently I've been feeling like I need to prove myself to others. Originally, I was going to post about the love of my life, I've decided not to. (That'll be another time). Anyways.. I feel like I need to prove myself. I'm not quite sure why all of a sudden I care what people think, I never have. I don't believe I care, I just want people to see a different side of me. There're plenty of people who has never spoken to me since I came to this school.That bothers me... As of right now I'm trying to prove to Ms.Hegeman that I'm not depressed, which I'm not. Trying to show my mature, intellectual side. 2 years ago, a girl I was friends with, told me I have "a bad Ora", "negative energy". Although, this girl is EXACTLY like me, she's just more CONTROLLING than I am. Ever since then I latched on to be a brighter, exciting and lovable person... Now, that hasn't worked. I shouldn't have to get a round of applause for not getting into any problems, very ignorant. I have no idea where this is going!!! This is so frustrating. I guess "changing" or "maturing" comes with self want and need. I think that these girls walk around acting like they know everything and they've found themselves. I know , I don't know who I am. I never really wanted to change, I never needed friends, I've always kept a small circle... I feel as though I don't need people to accept me, However, I am falsely judged on what people think they know about me. I've always heard "Tahera, I've always accused of people this person and didn't like you, Until I really got to know you". To hear that is a breath of fresh air because that is one less person that hates me.
I don't want this to be a long blog, I'll sum this up soon. I do know one thing, I am a good friend, Girlfriend, Aunt, Sister, Daughter, Cousin, Niece, Granddaughter and person. I may be mean at times it's just honesty because I am a nice person. I am Misunderstood, Overlooked, and Underrated.
Tahera is an extraordinary woman who is disposed to excess, and her policy seems to be "all or nothing" much of the time, meaning that her itinerary could take her to the highest peaks as well as towards certain chasms... This influence also nudges her in the direction of others - to the world and to the public. Tahera certainly doesn´t leave people indifferent and could go far with the right support - with the chance to be even more successful if she approaches life with a selfless attitude. She is an unconventional character who doesn´t like to follow the beaten track and knows no limitations.. Tahera is fascinated by elsewhere - be it geographically, intellectually or spiritually. She seeks to surpass herself and break the mould of habit and convention. This can often make her appear enigmatic and others could perceive her as a visionary or a nonconformist, or even an outside.Tahera is drawn to contact with the public, but destiny could present her with the other aspects of the number 9: overseas travel, altruism, humanitarian or philanthropic orientations. It is quite possible that she goes through different stages before achieving a state of perfect detachment, she needs to feel secure in the material realm before she can dedicate herself to others, and Tahera is not indisposed to a little soul searching. She needs to believe in what she does, and it is not inconceivable that she one day achieves a certain notoriety or another form of recognition. Her tendency to daydream, her sensuality and the nature of her ultimate quest, could, if she isn´t able to materialize her aspirations, lead her to artificial paradises. As a child, Tahera can be oversensitive, emotional and unpredictable, and one needs to understand her to be able to love her, although her perception of the truth may seem alien to you and her incredible stories shocking.
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